I am so scared that I will always end up doing the responsible thing
and never have anything to show for it
I want to be reckless
I want to leave everything and start over
become someone I want to be
not this person so bound by rules
and the conservative home she grew up in
I am so tired of filling this gaping hole with activities to ward off the loneliness and need for something more, the need to be free the need to lose myself. I need music. I need to run. run from everything for once.