How to break yourself over and over again

by remembertoexhale

I’ve always wondered what it was like 
to break into a million little pieces
turns out
it tastes a lot like jelly shots
and the feeling that your life isn’t yours
but then you do something
hoping to gain all that you have lost
or try to have
and it works 
a quick fix
temporary highs
and then very abruptly come the lows
and the breaking
self destruction, should not feel this good